okay. 
  that was fast. how the hell is it already october 
  i' ve been quite busy i guess. but if i have to be completely honest 
  i was fucking depressed to do even anything. everything feels so tedious. 
  i am still able to get around in my daily work and life tasks, but as soon as i have my own time 
  i have no clue where i should go or what to do myself. 
  my vision is slowly getting worse too :( 
  what to du huh~